Birthday Nurse

Ok ...so Tuesday night I learned that I should stand up to doctors when I want something or think something should be done for my patient. Last night I learned that it's probably better to call the doctors TOO often than not enough...and to go with my gut feeling instead of listening to what other people are "suggesting" even if they may have tons more experience and their opinions make you feel better about the situation at the time. My strip turned to @(#^ last night, and after one run-in with the doc earlier in the evening I wasn't too excited about calling her back and asking for her to come back in to assess it. I had one nurse saying "ya...maybe you should call" and another nurse who has worked there WAY longer than any of the rest of us saying "no...it doesn't look that bad. If it was bad you'd be doing something about it not just sitting here watching it." Ok ...so I didn't call 'till the patient was almost complete, then th...

It's been a long time since I have wanted NOT to go back to work. Usually I can have a rough night and then move on...but I seriously do NOT want to go back to work tonight. It's been a long first two nights of this set of 3, and I'm just not sure I can do one more. I'm trying to pick out the positives, like I get 8 days off after tonight, and I'm getting to go out of town tomorrow morning after I get off, and I made it though 2 nights I can make it through 1 more...but it's not helping too much! I had a nasty strip tonight, had to run to the ER and catch a baby and then do the recovery of the mom who spoke NO English. I loved my cervidil couple, they were amazing, but their baby just wouldn't cooperate! I'm still working on this "control" thing, and realizing that I can't control what the baby's doing and I can't necessarily "fix" anything, but it doesn't make my pulse any slower when the baby's pulse is! Anyway...

This nurse is too tired and too grouchy and too frustrated to really go in depth about her day at work. I don't think I will ever understand why some people (in this particular case doctors) do what they do when they do it. I feel like I did absolutely nothing today, got nothing really accomplished except watching my patient get sicker and sicker before my eyes and then handing her off to night shift to section 45 minutes after I left. A section that should have happened at about 0900 this morning, and by 1500 at the latest.Let's say that at times today, my line monitoring baby's heart beat was flatter than my toco line sitting on a uterus that was picking up only breathing. The toco line was at least a little jiggly! Sigh...more tomorrow when I won't blog things I'll regret later. Bottom line is -- babies today: ZERO