Birthday Nurse

Ok ...so Tuesday night I learned that I should stand up to doctors when I want something or think something should be done for my patient. Last night I learned that it's probably better to call the doctors TOO often than not enough...and to go with my gut feeling instead of listening to what other people are "suggesting" even if they may have tons more experience and their opinions make you feel better about the situation at the time. My strip turned to @(#^ last night, and after one run-in with the doc earlier in the evening I wasn't too excited about calling her back and asking for her to come back in to assess it. I had one nurse saying "ya...maybe you should call" and another nurse who has worked there WAY longer than any of the rest of us saying "no...it doesn't look that bad. If it was bad you'd be doing something about it not just sitting here watching it." Ok ...so I didn't call 'till the patient was almost complete, then th...

It's been a long time since I have wanted NOT to go back to work. Usually I can have a rough night and then move on...but I seriously do NOT want to go back to work tonight. It's been a long first two nights of this set of 3, and I'm just not sure I can do one more. I'm trying to pick out the positives, like I get 8 days off after tonight, and I'm getting to go out of town tomorrow morning after I get off, and I made it though 2 nights I can make it through 1 more...but it's not helping too much! I had a nasty strip tonight, had to run to the ER and catch a baby and then do the recovery of the mom who spoke NO English. I loved my cervidil couple, they were amazing, but their baby just wouldn't cooperate! I'm still working on this "control" thing, and realizing that I can't control what the baby's doing and I can't necessarily "fix" anything, but it doesn't make my pulse any slower when the baby's pulse is! Anyway...

So I was thinking last night after I worked an extra 6hr shift that right after times I think I'm really getting this L&D nursing thing, something else happens that shows me I still have SO much to learn that it scares me all over again! What am I still freaked out about as an L&D nurse? The list seems endless... ~ Decels , no matter what kind, still scare the snot out of me, because it only takes one decel to never come back up again... ~Crash C/S- I seem to get flustered at the littlest things, and at the wrong times anyway. If I can't open a scalp electrode at the right end, how am I gonna rush a patient back for a stat section all in one piece without forgetting something important!? I'm sure it's something that after I do it I won't be so terrified of it, but until that happens... ~A REAL shoulder dystocia - I know how to do suprapubic pressure, but what if that doesn't work? ~ That one time there's no heartbeat...heaven help me if that ever...